/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9767530
>Friend buys me cosplay I wanted to do for my birthday Really excited to wear the cosplay, love the character.
>It's a bodysuit, think nothing of it. Have total confidence it won't bother me at all to wear one.
>Cosplay finally comes in, try it on
>Reality comes crashing in that I'm a short dumpy troll and look like a sausage in It's casing
>Can't just not wear the cosplay because it was a gift, friend was excited for me to cosplay the character

I'm legitimately dreading going to this next con. I've been feeling like shit ever since I tried on the cosplay.I just feel like such an idiot for thinking I could pull it off in the first place. I feel even worse because it was a gift from my friend, I can't just tell her I don't want to wear it now because I look awful.

Went to a local con today and it really sucked to go alone. Two of my friends who said would come with me did not reply to my texts all day, and another friend was busy on a double date so I didn't want to intrude. I barely got any pictures of the con cause I was too bummed out to really do anything, and I was too shy to approach any of the cosplayers for pictures. At least I looked cute today, I guess...

I try on all my Lolita dresses at home but never wear them out
It usually involves me putting them on and immediately taking them off because I still look bad...
>yet I still spend hundreds of dollars on them

I just turned 24 recently and realized the only thing that fills the empty void in my soul is cosplaying and conventions. I have nothing else in my life, all my friends are successful or on the road to success and in happy relationships. I feel like a complete failure and I don't know how to fix it or what to do or who to turn to.

I'm pretty ready to commit suicide in a few years if my life continues on this way. Lately I've been thinking about how much better it would have been if I'd have never been born at all.

>>9582373
>tfw I own that blouse