/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

My boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me recently. It's tearing me apart because I'm still in love with him. He says that he fell out of love with me, but I just think that he just finally got out of the honeymoon phase and mistook it for falling out of love. I know its weird to think it lasted that long, but he always revered me really highly and put me on a pedestal. I enjoyed it and never saw it as an issue, but I can't convince him that he's making a mistake because he's really adamant about all of this and I know that I felt like I all of a sudden didn't want to be in a relationship once I got out of the honeymoon phase. I want him back more than anything and we were like two halves of one whole. There's just no more fun in my life with him gone. I need to find a way to get him to get back with me or else I'll crumble. He went to every convention with me, he was the dad to some of my dolls, he bought me lolita - he was amazing. I thought we were going to get married and I know being apart from each other at different schools won't help with falling back in love. Life really sucks and I wonder if I should even bother living it anymore honestly. All the things that we did together that I loved only cause me pain now and I never thought they would. There is no more happiness left in my world.