/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>crippling depression spike mid college
>not just the the general sadness everyone focuses on, but in the lethargic department to the extreme
>can't even begin to get out of bed
>life falling apart with one stroke of bad luck after another
>mom pressuring me to drop out over break
>only two friends there taking a year off
>if i do drop out i lose the counselling services of the one good therapist i've had
>spend all winter break stoned out of my mind to deal with the anxiety
>for the first time in years i feel suicidal again after i thought i moved passed that stage
>overwhelming feeling im living on borrowed time
>spend time looking at dresses when bored and when christmas comes around gets money
>realize I can buy one again and even start on cosplays with what I got
>while thinking of all the things i could do i realize that id have to live longer to do this
>relieved that i have at least something to go for that will buy me time to get better

Sounds material and pathetic when I think of it, but something about getting something that's for your enjoyment and your enjoyment alone after everyone's been taking it from you just feels nice