/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

My grandma's husband molested my sisters and I when we were kids. Not only that, but he took pictures of us and I'm pretty sure he didn't delete them off his computer before he died so I'm not entirely sure if they're still there or not (I'm actually very scared that he uploaded them online). The good news is that I'm able to make jokes about "grandpa touching me!!!!" and stuff like that, but seeing that stuff in fictional works really weirds me out. Like, I can't even watch certain episodes of Law and Order without getting nauseous.

I have friends that I cosplay with that I'm slowly finding out ship characters that are minors with adults, as well as ship incest pairings and it makes me VERY uncomfortable. For example, my one friend recently confided in me that they were sexually abused by a family member and in the same day mentioned how they shipped brothers together in an anime they watch. Like, I'm trying to have an open mind about how clearly my friends aren't pedophiles and obviously not into incest in real life but I can't help but feel like Tumblr and think "Gee, this person is #problematic!1"

I dunno, I'm trying to get a thick skin, but even seeing fictional stuff online reminds me of the abuse.

>this year marks the 5 year anniversary of him dying
>I'm celebrating the fuck out of it