/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Aside from being generally unclean (I'm tidy but if I'm not leaving the house I'll slob around in the same pyjamas and not shower for over week, I only make sure I pass the sniff test if I'm about to put on real clothes), the closest I get to lolita music tastes is maybe dark electro/gothic EDM (I don't like metal so I can't get into VK). I listen to 90% electronic music plus a bit of indie and grime from my youth and I dislike most upbeat, cheerful pop music. I'll listen to a bit of 90s/00s cheese but I find a lot of happy songs annoying for some reason and I can't stand jpop songs with childish, high-pitched singers, so most of what I listen to is either dark and aggressive or ambient and chill.

I was very boyish until I got into lolita towards the end of high school (and pretty violent until my early teens, I got into a lot of fights). Even though my personal style's got a bit more feminine, I pretty much always wear pants and rarely wear make-up outside of lolita. Even if a larme/otome/mainstream girly outfit looks cute and flatters me, I feel extremely uncomfortable and just not myself wearing it - I'm debating selling some ETC and MILK items I bought for casual outfits because I feel so exposed and self-conscious whenever I wear them out.

I'm also a rotten girl and have masturbated at least twice a day pretty much every day for the past ten years, but I don't think that's inherently anti-lifestyle. Even Novala said young ladies love homosexuals. Besides, I keep it discreet and don't go posting about fujoshit on Facebook or talking about lesbian BDSM at meets...desu I think most casual acquaintances think I'm super repressed and only a couple of extremely close friends know I that I struggle sleeping without masturbating first and constantly fantasize about having a dick.