/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>6613362
My local convention which advertises itself as the most anime themed one has more western cosplay than eastern. Homestuck, supernatural, adventure time, disney princesses, disney characters in general etc. All over the goddamn con. The only anime characters are some ghetto as fuck vocaloid/touhou ones and occasionally a few really good ones. It's sad because I don't have the same interest for the western media (I guess it's not as "exotic", idk) as I do for anime and meeting people cosplaying from my favourite series was a great way to break the ice and make new friends. Now that I only see western cosplay I feel really lonely even though it's supposed to be an anime convention.

picture related, it's me at an anime convention that has no anime-related cosplay

I remember when I first started going to cons around 2004-2005(?) when my country first started having them (non-US, European). I grew up in a small city and nobody I knew liked anime so it was just amazing to see all this glitz. Inspired by this, I started cosplaying and visiting more and more cons, being in awe every time I saw my favourite characters being cosplayed and ran to them to take photos.

Now years later, I've become a stuck up bitch. When I see my favourites cosplayed I immediately notice all the flaws in their costume and do the full "fatty-chan ahoy jesus christ what happened to your face that fabric choice is awful gawd did you even try with those props" routine inside my head. I'm always polite though and I would never say that to anyone's face, but I can't help but judge them in my mind. It doesn't help that my country's cosplay scene is rather small and I know most of the decent/above average cosplayers and everything about the drama surrounding them. So when I see a well-made costume I just go "oh, that crazy bitch, god I hate her so much" instead of enjoying it. And when I meet a nice cosplayer who has a great costume, I get a little jealous. There's no winning.

I've also become a huge perfectionist. Everything needs to be perfect, no skimping on details or cutting corners. It drives me mad because I set the bar so ridiculously high for myself that I start hating my costume when I'm halfway finished. When I don't get a place in the top 3 of the contest I get insanely depressed. I spend ludicrous amounts of money into my costumes because I always want to improve instead of just wearing old ones. It's driving me nuts, why can't I just be happy like I was with my half-assed, shitty no-wig cosplays from way back?

tl;dr: A bitchy stuck-up cosplayer hating herself and what she's become