/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be me (I wound't recommend it)
>grow up with BPD/NPD single mother who sought out like minded men to date
>life is suffering
>so much utter bullshit for years it literally drove me insane
>act super co-dependant and borderline because its all I knew
>can't keep sane friends because I'm a nut
>was THAT weeaboo for years (it was my only escape from it all)
>can't keep a sane bf
>end up attempting suicide
>luckily didn't work
>mom said some shit right after that, and then some after another incident shortly after that made me realize how deep in the shit I was and how fucked up my life is
>say fuck it, if i stay here I'm dead so i might as well die out there on my feet
>Literally leave at midnight on my 18th
>couch surf with some other nuts until I can sort myself out, having major issues with mental health
>takes 8 years to fully sort myself out
>lots of therapy, identity building, and learning skills I should have known years ago
>finally off the meds and no longer exhibiting crazy bullshit symptoms of anything, life is stable and happy
>can't help but feel a weird anger/melancholy over the years I lost just having to deal with all this shit

>finally get the courage to talk to others about it and
-your old friends are still awful crazy people or want nothing to do with you because you were awful and crazy
-your family hates you (extended family) save of one aunt who knows whats up
-most people can't relate or hyper focus on certain aspects instead of trying to understand it as a whole

Oh well, at least I'm not fucking crazy anymore

>>9920779
I agree. I don't tell people I have it, let alone leave it anywhere someone may happen upon it. The only person I trust with my gun is me. Its a liability otherwise. I made the mistake once of telling a female friend that was staying at my place where it was just in case she needed it. She ended up taking it out to take selfies with it later when I wasn't home.

Another time I had gone to a friends house to shoot, he had a huge property with a proper little range on it. Him and his brother even made a giant hill downrange. He had invited over some people to shoot this gun he just got after months of drooling over it. Someone brought their girlfriend who was very much not into guns. Constantly talked shit about us and the guns. Said she knew everything about guns because her father taught her how to shoot, which is why she knows how awful they are. Boyfriend tries to get her to shoot to loosen her up a bit. No trigger discipline, swings it around when shes moving, points it at people, points it at herself after she dry fires twice after emptying the gun and she starts fiddling with the 'jammed' gun to fix it.

We joke with the guy now and say that he must have been trying to get rid of her by 'accidental suicide' so he didn't have to dump her.