/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm freaking out. I'm only 22 and I've noticed my nasolabial folds are becoming more prominent. I rarely smile, I massage my face, I moisturize with coconut oil, etc. I've noticed over the past few weeks they're getting worse.

What do I do?

>Used to be a hamplanet growing up
>Decide to finally start losing weight when I was 20
>Lost about 70 pounds in 3 years with another 30 to go
>Terrified of going outside due to the fear of someone commenting on my weight and thinking I'm a fat tub of lard.
>Just the thought stirs up my anxiety
>Haven't stepped outside in almost 6 months now
>Emotional eater
>End up feeling sorry for myself and eating
>Doing this on and off for 3 years
>Lately I've been eating less and exercising daily
>Decide to go out on Monday
>"Test" what I'm going to wear
>Sticking out of pants from all sides
>Stomach looks flatter, but I still stick out from the sides
>Check myself in the mirror several times a day to see if I look thinner
>Tell myself no one is going to comment on my weight
>Freaking out about Monday
>I just want to be thin and pretty

I know this is pathetic and I'm a big girl who should be out and about. I don't know how to stop obsessing about my body and food. It's all I think about. I went from eating several meals a day to one with a couple snacks to keep me from feeling sick. I exercise a couple times a day and despite the fact my gut doesn't stick out as much as it used to, my sides won't slim down.

I just want to be pretty for once in my life.