/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Gulls, I'm agoraphobic, and it's making my social life a mess. Ever since I was a nine or ten I've had both general and social anxiety, with the latter being worst when I'm socially obligated to a group of unfamiliar people. Structured settings like classes or work are generally manageable, but things such as parties, trips, and meet ups make me want to turn into a million bugs and crawl out of my own skin. Even if I'm really excited for it or think it will be fun, I become incredibly physically and emotionally uncomfortable leading up to and, if I attend, during the event.

I've only attended three meet ups because of this. The first one, I managed to barely hold my spaghetti thanks to it being a museum meet up where I could wander off alone. Ended up meditating in the powder room for like ten minutes because I felt a panic attack coming on. Then I threw up and passed out when I got home. The second (different comm) felt incredibly uncomfortable at times, but I had some fun. I still felt incredibly drained after a short afternoon tea, though. The third was again bearable, but it was in my hometown at my favorite tea room. I left before the second portion because I felt so drained, though.

It sucks because I really want to go out and hang out with other people who like the fashion, but my stupid fucking anxiety makes it so taxing and not fun. I'm working on it through therapy, but it's worse when I'm already stressed or anxious from my job/life.

Anyone else deal with this? What helps?

tl;dr How can I get over my agoraphobia and make irl lolita friends?

>Be at work, home, or whatever
>Trying to have a conversation
>Always have people speaking over me

I'm not even that shy or quiet, but lately I've just lost the will to speak because everyone around me just talks over me or interrupts me. I feel as if nothing I say has significance. I've even begun talking to people with a stutter and I don't know how to deal.

>>8862291
Got my package in today and my black AP bag has the thread popped out on one of the straps. This is why I don't buy brand shoes or bags. UGH

>>8789952
Shit, I totally forgot and gave my roommate the old address. I'm so sorry! At least there's nothing really perishable, I guess...

>>8084468
Ah- meant to aim that reply at this post >>8084428

>>7769015
I want this dress so bad. ugh

>>7710431
tfw no size S left

>smallish mbok order (~$500) has been stuck in Chicago for ~6 days
>never had an item linger in customs before
>mfw I wanted the dress for this Wednesday and thought I allowed for plenty of time

I'm bidding on my dream dress at the moment and am beginning to feel terribly anxious that someone is going to come and snatch it up from under me, since it's a somewhat popular piece going for a decent price.
Why doesn't LM offer protection from snipers?