/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9018500

Actually a good question.

The thought of actually wearing cute stuff came always back and never 100% left me, so I would definetly except that it might have been just a phase.

I kinda had this thing for frilly stuff since when I was small and still pre-school, but had to keep it for myself though since my mother had a problem with my father, who was into wearing female clothing for fetish purposes (bedroom only though) and she came from a strict catholic family while my father wasn't religious at all.

Also I was never a good example of being "manly" at all. Small, unsporty, weak, in earlier years a crybaby and until today still kind of prone to feelings eventhough I keep a more stoic image while in public. I also mostly hang out with girls until I entered high school (which is around the age of 10-11 here).

With the junior high school years(?) around age 12, I further progressed to become an introverted loner without friends. Being a nerd wasn't as accepted as it is today and I especially had luck to land on a school/in a year where I was mostly alone with my interests. My parents divorced and my father didn't give much of a shit of how I was developing. I was pretty much a prime example of a beta if you want to call it like that lol.

It was only after entering the senior years until I rediscovered this deep hidden interest. At first I was sure that it had to be a fetish thing with psychologic influences through my father or sth like that and therefore I was treating it as such. But that didn't satisfy this feel I had at all.

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