/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be me, an extroverted hypochondriac with a shitty immune system (hospitalized with the flu in 2019 and was dog sick for 5 weeks)
>live in a place where the general population could likely earn the title of "most retarded in the developed world" by a landslide
>haven't left my house in over a month now because the majority of people refuse to wear masks and stay away from me
>have drugs to help my depresso but current psych cant prescribe controlled substances so the only thing they can give to help anxiety is glorified benadryl
>it helps for 30 min before I pass out for 8-16 hours
>only meds that help my anxiety are benzos, aka controlled substances
>spend all my time either shaking and trembling and nauseated from my anxiety or asleep
>been vomiting everyday for a week from the anxiety
>powered thru my phone anxiety and called 11 psychiatrists today, finally found one that does telehealth and can prescribe controlled substances
>appt is monday

pray for me that this psych gives me some goddamn benzos. and pray that I can get the fucking vaccine soon. I'd sacrifice a goat to satan if it meant I could safely go to brunch and wear lolita and feel happy and cute and get to socialize with people IRL.