/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9511786
You shouldn't let your age and chub hold you back! If you know/learn how to style yourself, you can make it work for you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G03ifZwtXNA

But on the topic of feeling too inadequate to be an idol
>love idols and have wanted to be one/join a group as a hobby for quite a while now (Used to want to be one professionally when I was like 15)
>pretty decent at singing with a wide vocal range
>not much experience with dancing but hey, practice makes not-so-good into not-so-bad
>daydream a lot about performing for a cheering crowd and designs for cute stage costumes
>every time I've ever actually been in front of an audience has made me have a nervous breakdown where i shake violently and sob uncontrollably
Why do I have such an intense desire to perform for an audience while also having an intense fear of being in front of an audience?