/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Gulls,were did the older kawaii.i vids go? (2012 and before) i can only find a handful randomly posted by random YT accounts but the official Kawaii.i YT channel deleted them

How tf do you smile on pictures properly?
If I ever do,people say my face is creepy because of my big dumb eyes. I already got called kinda creepy looking because of them.
It hurts, I just want people to think i look warm and sincere and not a "creepy little doll"

I am so happy i can fit in lolita including older,smaller pieces without trouble or too much trouble but i am so tired of being a womanlet with small af boobs,a small butt,small hips,normal thighs,... i hate my body my waist isnt even super small (a boring normal 67cm) and i am short too (5"3). Lolita hides my body and makes me hate it less but i am so tired gulls...at least i have a flat stomach but still no bf/gf