/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>Boyfriend and I break up after being together for over a year
>He found another girl only 2 weeks later
>We said we'd get back together if he treated me better
>He was being a sweetheart to me again like when we first got together
>I'm so fucking jealous that I want to sob and have him to myself again even though he treated me badly
>Haven't really spoke much to him since and have been running on a couple hours of sleep a day and eating makes me sick.

I hate being such a jealous, salty cunt. He treated me so badly and made me cry all the time, but I still want him to myself. I don't know how to get over this.

I'm terrified that I fucked up.

>Meet my ideal guy
>Trying to be open with him about everything so that if there's something about me he can't stand, it's out of the way before we get too serious
>He came into the relationship with the same mindset due to his past
>Finally get serious enough to let him know about my dad's physical and sexual abuse
>Never told anyone the details I gave him
>He tries to comfort me about it at first
>Hasn't talked to me since

I'm terrified he sees me as damaged goods now.