/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>always have anxiety about weight since dad's genetics don't help me since he's a fatass hispanic
>thought i was doing fine and maintaining
>started biking this semester and love it
>boyfriend said I looked more tone than I had before
>winter comes in
>eating a little more, but clothes pretty much fit normally
>go to gyno for check up
>told I gained 20 pounds
>le wat

I just want to starve myself to go back to how I was. I really hate myself.