/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>>9269068
My "professional" (term used loosely) orientation is in /tv/ + /lit/ kind of stuff, but I'm like socially phobic to the 10th degree and I've always been self-conscious about writing and expressing myself even though it's what I really want to do and the only thing I really know how to do. Then a couple months ago I submitted a piece to some /tv/-related blogs and ended up getting published in a medium-sized site. My first couple pieces got a lot of positive responses including shares and retweets from some major industry figures (e.g. directors of movies you have almost certainly seen), my family was super proud of me, and now I'm going to be a regular contributor for the site and get free early-release Criterion Collection movies in the mail and actually get paid to write about them. I'm writing stuff for them on a regular basis now and people are reading it.

So I should be feeling pretty happy, except I'm still a socially incompetent anxious wreck who can't talk to women worth a damn and has no close friends who share my interests (they're mostly STEM dudes). So outside of my family I feel like I have no one to share this personal victory with. I'm also too much of a coward to keep writing the screenplay and novel projects I started and then ran away from because expressing myself artistically is scary. It's kind of an empty and bittersweet feeling.

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