/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

My longterm bf broke things off with me out of the blue the other day because he "had become unable to put effort into thinking about me" and had "stopped liking me as much" over the course of a few months of doing long distance. I thought we both realized ldr would be difficult and had decided to do our best to communicate and work things out, but I guess I was mistaken. It's been very hard for me to deal with everyday life the last two days.

In more cgl-related feels: I am an emotional buyer, and I blew more money that I really shouldn't have on clothing once this all happened. At least now I can wear whatever I want without worrying that he'll say it's "too much," not that it's really any consolation.

I've been wearing lolita since I was thirteen, up until I came out as ftm this year. Since then, I've been doing my best to dress masculine, and I'm starting hormones in a few weeks.
However, I still want to wear lolita. I wouldn't wear it all the time like I used to, but to cons and meetups and stuff.
I feel like people will judge me and think I'm a transtrender, but I can't help it. It doesn't help that I don't really have another outlet for my love of fashion, because 99.9% of men's clothing is so boring.

>had someone buy a cosplay from me
>lower offer than I had expected, but still enough to put back into 2 dream dresses I coincidentally found of Mbok!
>Bliss!
>talk to them before the auction ends; eager to pay me and definitely want the outfit
>72 hours to respond and send payment
>no response from them after auctions ends.
>It's been 72 hours
>feel like my heart is breaking because I've had a shitty couple o' months, and I just wanted to treat myself to 2 of my dream dresses