/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Any gull with anxiety here?
I almost never go to meetups mainly due to my crippling anxiety.
I'm feeling excited planning an event in my head but when it comes down to actually planning (asking everyone,setting a date,..) or being the day/week before, i get pretty anxious,imagine all kinds of bad stuff (friends not getting along together,something bad happening,best friend canceling,...)
It's gone to the point where i can't feel excited anymore.
I planned a little meetup for my birthday in november and I don't even feel excitment (and I invited friends I love,haven't seen them in a while,we'll be just 5,...). I only feel angst. It's not even fun because of how much I'm stressed about it.

>tfw going to con this weekend
>tfw no cool/qt cosplayer friends