/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>barely been in lolita even two years
>already spent 8k USD on my wardrobe, not including shipping, SS fees, etc.
>have rich parents so it's not the end of the world, but am supposed to be saving to become financially independent because their money always comes with strings
>just graduated and in the middle of job hunting, but my prospects look shit for the next few years
>really want to just rely on my parents forever as the easy way out, and so that I can keep up my lolita spending
>gf comes from a poor family, terrified of her judging me for being a basic materialistic bitch
>feel so guilty every time I buy anything
>blocked / unfollowed all shopping sites and pages, but I still feel bad
gulls, how do I make it stop? I already know I'm trash. still trying to convince myself 300 a month isn't that much..