/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I have a boyfriend. I'm close friends with another guy. He likes me. I don't want to crush his heart in two. I care about him, and I even used to have a crush on him (and still do, sort of - I was confused and scared I was going to cheat on my boyfriend when we started getting more friendly, but eventually I got a grip, and I thought it'd be fine. I guess I was fucking wrong). I don't want to play with anyone's feelings, all I wanted was to make a connection. I don't want to hurt anyone. Fuck.

Being brown and into J-fashion is kind of a hassle, because I need to think ahead and adapt color schemes to work with my skintone more than someone who's just tan or something would. Most of the J-fashion inspo I see is of pale people, but it's easier now than ever to find dark-skinned inspo, which is nice. It's just an extra step that makes me reeee.
I actually like my skin color and get complimented on being "caramel" a lot, but still. It's almost like being chubby and needing to dress to flatter my figure, except I didn't choose this fate.

>join discord
>it's just two anons
>think "fuck, i can't blend in like this"
>too anxious and beta to say anything
>leave in shame
I'm sorry