/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I keep lonelyposting on here but I just do it to myself. Im not terribly ugly, but my skin is so bad. I'm not completely insufferable to be around, but I am childish and annoying and too aggressive. A cute girl, or even a man, will never love me and I will never have anyone to explore the world with, share experiences with....

>be me, fatty-chan gull who comes to this board at least once a day
>tired of being fatty even though doctor says my health is great
>lose 40 pounds in less than 6 months
>Cue me being proud of myself for doing this
>Remembers I'm still a fatty
>Falls into depression
>Scared that if I post myself anywhere cgl will still call me a landwhale

why was I cursed with this nasty, fat body gulls... I feel so downtrodden, even though I've lost this much weight. I know I've lost it and worked hard to get here... and I'm still working! But other people still see me as just some fat slob who isn't trying. I want to wear my brand because it's fitting better now but damn... I don't know if i can shake this anxiety.

**note: I don't think other fat ppl are disgusting or are obligated to lose weight unless their health is at risk. I just wanted to vent. I've struggled with bulimia and anorexia since the sixth grade because of bullying about my weight, all of which immediately was gained back and then some after hospitalization for these disorders. This time, I am doing this the healthy way: Proper portion control, mild exercise, lots of water, and support from those I love.**

>>8169052
thats what i get for only reading half the post sorry bout that.

>>8124568
>non-nude

>>8058140
ah...it might be...

>>7996206
120,000 yen...

>>7989725
I hate that I don't have a nice light olive skin tone. It's more of a golden beige. Looks good with normalfag fashion, but I can only coord with a few colors without looking bad IMO.
>Tfw I love sax blue but it looks terrible on me

i honestly think lovely lor looks like a ugly witch directly from hell and i just dont ever want to see her in lolita! some of her coords are cute but they would look 200% times better on someone else.

My friend and i went to a local parade in lolita a few days ago,it was my first time out in lolita. we took some pictures and when i got home and looked at them,i looked horrible in all of them and i cant stop looking at them and picking out all the defects and just feeling bad about how i looked,and its seriously bringing me down. the people for the newspaper took a picture of us too,and i dont even want to think about that. its making me want to quit lolita all together.