/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>develope serious tendonitis in my dominant hand
>constant pain
>has been going for three weeks without much improvement

>can't really move or use the arm an any way
>can't go to work for the whole month, maybe longer
>no work, no money so really tight budget
>have free time bc exams are alomst over and no work, but can't really use free time because all my hobbies involve using my dominant hand
>can't draw, can't paint, can't do crafting, can't even play vidya bc I can only use one hand
>no money, nothing to do, no more motivation left
>don't even want to dress up because I can barely apply make up or do a nice hairstyle, and I feel like crap in general

>mfw doctor told me it might need weeks or months until it's healed


I feel so demotivated, I have so much time I can't use, I'll lose an entire month's salary and maybe even more, work is pissed because I am sick, parents think I'm a lazy piece of shit and don't take the tendonitis serious (despite my family having a history of chronic diseases like these)...
The only things that bring me any enjoyment are watching old sitcoms and animu, and playing Pokemon go because this game requires only one hand to play.
I just wanna use my arm again ;_;

I'm heartbroken over what has happened to my local comm. When I first joined five years ago, it was a small but happy group. There was a focus on more "lifestyle elements" like going to elegant meets and spending time with one another. It wasn't competitive and we were all genuinely friends.

I'm not sure when it happened exactly but over the years it has changed for the worse. The newest batch of lolitas from the past 3 or 4 years have been awful and are obsessed with drama. Meets are now BTB discussions and photoshoots. It is a popularity and beauty competition now. There is constant harassment and some members have been sharing pictures from our comm here and other places to bully them.

The comm isn't welcoming to newbies and has only gotten more toxic as time has gone by. I don't even enjoy meets anymore, especially hosting them.

I wish I could go back in time and spend another day back how it used to be. I'm really thinking of quitting the comm but I don't want to lose something I have been a part of for so long. Starting a second comm isn't an option either.

What is your local community's current drama?

Ours is a passive-aggressive pity party from the people who didn't get selected to model for Baby's fashion show.