/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>depressed as fuck
>con fashion show in few weeks
>depression makes me feel fat, ugly and basically only negative things about my body
>decide to try and loose few kilos bc already kinda low appetite and eating makes me feel so bad I want to vomit, trying to do it anyways, normal weight but I have extra to loose etc. so might as well make it quick
>depression makes me cranky, not eating makes me straigth out angry
>bf games at night, listens to music, talks to his friends and occasionally yells to his game
>depression also makes me tired and I can't stay awake until he goes to sleep also but I can't sleep either bc he is making noice and I always wake earlier than I should - tired ofc
>mfw I'm so fucking angry, tired, frustrated and sad I'm probably going to have a break down before the cons
>really want to shed the extra tho
Seriously all I do is hide from my bf in a dark room, sleep and go to long walks alone. I don't even remember when was the last time I wore lolita. Fortunately, I have doctor's appointment and a nice meet next week so maybe it turns better. I just wish he would pet me and say it's going to be fine and I'm safe instead of telling me to do bunch of stuff I'm not cabable of rn.