/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be born in rural south carolina
>korean mom and dad
>still have no idea why they wouldn't pick L.A. or any other highly populated city with a korean community
>tfw only asian kid in elementary and middle school
>surprisingly didn't get bullied or anything, southern kids are pretty nice, hung out with a bunch of black kids too and played four-square during recess in 5th grade
>i felt like one of them, sure the occasional asian joke, but they were all pretty chill and made a bunch of friends with everyone.
>middle school
>puberty and identity and 'fitting in'
>start realizing that i'm different from everyone else, and isolate myself, never talk to anyone, sit alone at lunch or go to the library
>turn into a loser, no one knows i exist, just a weird asian kid, some think i just moved here and can't make friends because i can't speak english or something

>i remember this one morning i lost my voice because of a cold, i couldn't say a word if i tried, but went to school still
>keep thinking to myself "fuck what if the teacher calls on me or something and i can't speak?"
>the only person that realized that i couldn't talk was the lunch lady
>realized that day how much of a mute i was, some days when i would count the words i would say out loud, and it would be less than 10,

>moved to a different city in highschool
>still a mute, spent lunch in the bathroom, made no friends

i didn't even go the graduation ceremony. my mom and dad asked when they should go, and i just said that i didn't have to. i was too fucking scared to show them that i was a friendless loser, and that no body knew that i existed. I didn't want them to see all my classmates outside when it was over, and when everyone was crying and taking pictures and wishing each other their bests. i didn't want them to see how much of a loser their son was, off in a corner, looking at everyone, talking to no one.

i wish i was better and not so fucking insecure all the time.

these are my feels.

>>9081494
let's not play around the idea that the majority of people who go out and cosplay, do so to give and get attention. there's no "love" for the characters. there's no appreciation for them. it's just a means to get more attention. to have people fawn over you and be liked.

and the guys that do go out and try to seek this, do so to simply get their dicks wet. but you see it all the time, they go out with this great costume idea, with high hopes and dreams of finally meeting someone just like them. but no. no one takes their photo. the only photos are the ones saved on his own phone, or a background figure, accidentally captured and quickly cropped out afterwards.

they meet no one. no one cares, and they become reminded of how insignificant they are. and they never attempt to do it ever again.

that's why it's not fun, and pointless. the best looking guys get the majority of the girls.