/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>still in love w/ the qt ex lolita fwb
>hadnt spoken in months
>messaged her asking her how she was told her I just want to be friends w/ her
>we hang out
>realize I was lying to myself
>it got awkward

two weeks ago haven't spoken since. it's like during summer break I was seeing this other girl and all I could think about was her. I think it's because we started fucking while I was changing to an antidepressant that really fucked w/ me but she has messed me so much

>be in deep pit of depression
>met v. cute ex-lolita girl (quit because eating disorder I think)
>she is very cute somewhat mori
>from the start agree to be casual
>share stuff w/ her that I've never shared before first girl I've ever felt truly comfortable w/
>want to ask her to be serious gf but decide not to because I don't want to ruin what we have
>after not seeing each for a while we meet up and she tells me one of the other people she has been seeing wants to go serious and I tell her I can't be her friend and walk away all joy division
>2+ months later and I still feel like dirt

the sweaters I lent her still smell like her perfume. I think now I have a complex about lolita/mori girls and browse /cgl/ out of self-pity and longing

>>6999886

I've felt that feel for a long time