/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I had my first break up ever months ago. It was emotionally easy in the start since I was just too pussy to do it earlier but my ex managed to make it a hell. First clinging to me like a baby, crying and being manipulative. When I finally got rid of him he would become difficult to deal with and mean. At the same time I was tired and hurt by the things he said but the things he had done me while we were still together started to bother me. While it has made me even more happier that I'm over him I just can't get over it and stop thinking what could have happened. He was a total nutjob, I missed all the basic redflags and he would have hit me eventually (he was already yelling at me, one time grabbed my arm and held it so hard it hurt and didn't let go). While it might be finally over as he got his last things yesterday, I'm emotionally so tired and the things still go around in my head. I just want to forget, I'm in new relationship which I'm absolutely happy in. I used to get power from lolita but now it just seems too much and I feel somehow uneasy sometimes. I just wan't to enjoy my frills and life like I used to before that manbaby started to fuck with me.

I hate that I was somebody's worst con experience.
When I was 13, I 'glomped' a furry my some-what friend knew and they twisted their ankle and couldn't wear their suit after that and stayed in the hotel for most of the con. I'm so shit.