/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>last year finally getting life together, starting to cosplay, go to all these cons, travel by myself, meet people

>Finally have a group of friends for the first time in my life that I felt liked me and that we had something genuine, constantly doing things for them, paying for everything for them, all the time but whatever i was making shit tons working under the table

>treat me kind of badly at times, but self esteem level 0 so I went along with it, say things like "when I move we probably won't be close anymore and eventually not friends" (is moving 45 minutes away), slowly treat me worse and worse

>bought and made some really nice cosplays, and burando but never wore them out or anything due to really bad body image

>lose job, have a bit of savings but most of it was me saving up for school

>horrifically depressed

>use remaining amount of money to make the upcoming con really great for everybody, agreed to pay for one person before losing my job and go through with it anyway

>owe money (less than 100) to one friend. They now hate me. regardless of the fact ive spent 500 plus on them an their s/o