/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>no friends irl
>attend college just to please parents
>been looking for a job for 8 months
>had an interview last week
>really hope I get this job because it's a full time position
>if I get this job I don't have to worry about college and take as long as I need to graduate
>also have crippling self doubt and for the past week have been having nightmares and waking up crying

Everyone has been telling me that I will get this job and the interview did go well, however I literally want to die due to the stress of waiting to see if I actually got it.

Last job interview I went on, it went well but I was still rejected so I have a lot of self doubt now. I just want enough money to go to a con later this year and maybe make some friends. I left my house maybe three times in the past two weeks, I spend all my time in my room.

I want my crippling depression to go away.