/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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After thinking about these things and thinking about my feelings, I think I may have found the answer. I don't know that Lolita is for me at all and perhaps maybe that part of my life is over with. But that doesn't mean I can't wear the gorgeous clothes. I'm going to change the way I look at them and wear them to suit my own unique lifestyle.

I'll do away with the petticoat except for a special occasion, and toss out the rules of Lolita altogether. I'm going to start treating the clothes as something I can wear everyday. It won't be quite Lolita, but it will be me, and it will allow me to wear what I love whenever I wish instead of whenever the stars are in alignment for me.

I already feel freedom while thinking about this. Maybe I'll try it and things won't work out after all, but it's important to me that I try. Lolita has been a part of my identity for a long time, and while I'm ready to give that up, I just can't give up the clothes, and of course I can't give up the lifestyle.

As the seasons begin to change, and lazy summer becomes the fall, crisp and busy with harvest and preparing for the winter, I,too, am changing. I am leaving Lolita behind me, and blossoming into a maiden from an old dusty book. A girl living in the forest in raggedy clothes. A princess who runs away to become a knight. I'm going to take all the parts of the things I love best and let them coexist and mingle into to something that's doable for me. It's going to be a little scary, but I feel as if I should have done this years ago. I'm ready.