/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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discovered gothic lolita by way of visual kei back in 2003 or 2004. wore EGA inspired outfit made of offbrand and gothic brands, but i did not call it EGA. lolita to me was very tied into Japanese gothic fashion and visual kei, so to me, it was just "visual kei."

i lurked the various online sites off and on for a few years. i met some people IRL who liked visual kei and i tried to get back into it, but it felt like too much had changed, and i realized i knew very little about it in the first place. this was around when everyone was wrapping a cloth over their nose a la Reita and wearing highlights and extensions. it was not my style at all.

eventually i stopped considering myself a visual kei fan because i did not like the current scene and hardly knew any of the music, new or old. i had just liked the look. i felt like a poser.

eventually, recognizing i just enjoyed Japanese gothic fashion, not necessarily the music, i became more familiar with the different types of Japanese street fashions, including lolita. like a homophobe in denial over what his porn history means, i told myself i was not interested in lolita fashion, just gothic fashion, even as i began stalking online lolita comms and participating in /cgl/ and creating myriad lolita-inspired broken doll avatars with poofy skirts for every site i used.

at last i realized i would not be collecting images and information about the fashion if i did not want to be part of it. in 2014, i bought my first brand, which i wore out for the first time last year. it was, of course, Moitie.

it has been a long road getting here and a lot has changed. i wish i had joined in sooner.