/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm a lolita who is about to go work in Japan, but I'm really scared. I'll be working for a non-lolita fashion company (which is fine by me, pay will be good and stuff like that) but I'm still worried. I know this is my dream come true but I'm scared shitless. It will be right after I graduate college and start living fully independently, it'll be my first corporate Job. Japanese companies are really strict, so I'll have to give up a lot of things and I'm also really worried about fitting in (since I know how companies often feel about white women working in Japan). I know I should be skipping for joy, I know I SHOULD want this, so why don't I feel like it :(