/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I have an unending, unyielding crush on someone. The thought of her from day to day gives me life and energy. She's gorgeous, beauitful, exceptionally talented, passionate, and I feel like we get along well.

The only thing is, i'm in a relationship with someone who has cheated on me multiple times. If I abandon her, she financially depends on me, and moved from seveal states away to be with me. I will destroy her life.

I'm only so cool of a person. Thi s is one of those ultra-rare times when I click with someone. I don' t know if they feel the same about me.

I could just settle down and be with the person I am right now and that would be that.

But *she* is all I think about. I don't think she really is interested. We talked once for many hours, and it made me *sooooo* happy.

But I don't want to push my luck again. I tried talking a little bit today and it didn't seem to go anywhere. That means I get to back off forever it seems and quietly admire her.

I'm trying to get stronger, challenging myself to make more money and get fitter. Even worse though, she's close with someone who i'd consider a really cool person and wouldn't want to cause drama.

I want it so bad. I do...

K, I hope that somewhere you're out there and you understand.