/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I've been feeling pretty down lately even though I went to Katsucon this weekend. I had fun, of course because I got to see friends and saw nice cosplays but I didn't feel like I fit in. I didn't get recognized, which was to be expected but even with simple costumes, I didn't feel like I was good enough; my costumes wasn't good enough and my whole look was not good enough even though I thought I looked decent in the mirror (just not on camera)

Besides that, I feel like I've reached a point where I haven't seen any improvement in my cosplays. I've slowly pushed forward into trying a little bit of new things as well as practicing it as each cosplay comes by but it is still pretty terrible.

Honestly, I just don't feel like I fit into the con scene anymore. It's sad but I have met a lot of my friends through cosplay and it's the thing that I really have as a hobby. I'm so mediocre in everything that I don't think I can do anything else

Just feeling down in general, I've been thinking more depressed and self -harm and thoughts of disappearing . I really do not want to go to the therapist because I do not want to go through that again. And I do not want my boyfriend to go through me having so many problems as well.
I just feel like a terrible person in general-- useless and disposable.

>>7333395
>tfw I was the weeaboo of the relationship, and he was actually pretty cool

there goes 4 years of his life
ahahahahahahaha-now I'm sad, god I was such a horrible weeb

>Finals are over,
>Feel brain dead
>Really looking forward to my winter break to get some serious work done on my cosplay
>get offered a job (not a bad job, but im just so tired and want to rest for a few weeks)
>I have to take it, I have no choice

>>6589902
>another jellyfat still angry that Lobitah is still the most pure and lovely girl to ever grace the seagulls with her presence.

Stay ugly.

>>6511322
>He just thinks he's in love
>Is that love any less true?
>What is love?

I wasn't ready for this today.