/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

after seeing all these anons in this thread I feel petty about complaining about my situation (I hope you gulls get better and take care)

this is probably going to be all over the place cuz I'm all panicky but oh well
>be me
>dealing with smol time cancer scare, nothing serious, for past 2 years
>constant doc appointments, etc
>have this other tumor thing
>let's call tumor thing Stan
>Stan is a (painful) cunt
>Stan has been getting worse, decided to "burst"
>finally get follow up and find out that cancer scare is no more now, but Stan is still Stan and needs to go
>thankfuck.jpeg
>have two options for stan removal
>8 month wait for surgery, means all summer I can't do anything
>or pill that makes me lose the ability to have kids and is harsh
>none are guaranteed to work 100%
>tfw probably cant have kids anyways cuz baby apartment is full of cysts
>this week apparently all my friends are pregnant
>ultrasounds remind me of all the ones I had to get (inside and out)
>happy for them but kinda sad
>anyways back to stan
>gyn biopsied stan and cauterized him
>felt everything cuz 6 freezing needles did shit all
>tfw can't exercise or stan is gonna burst again
>probably will need to quit my job
>is skinny white girl, but used to be Asian tier skinny
>can't fit into my skirt i wanted to wear for tea party coord
>2 taobao orders, lacemarket order, and bl order still not in
>contain necessary components for coord
>still needed two other things for dream coord
>con 2 weeks away, have no choice to go cuz I got tickets for the lolita event
>planned out this coord for a whole year because I was a raging ita last year
>dream skirt and everything
>guess I'm gonna be a raging ita again
>stan ruined everything
>fuck you stan

there's more that gets feelsy but I ranted long enough, sorry gulls