/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Hey it’s ED anon from a couple threads ago, I figured I’d do an update. My boyfriend has been really worried about me lately, so I promised him that I’d eat three meals a day. I’ve been good about that the past couple days and as long as I keep my calories below 1500 a day I can usually avoid mental breakdowns. Of course I still feel like shit and Eating as much as I am has been really hard for me. I’ve been exercising a lot more than I probably should, I have some really bad joint issues and exercising how I am can cause me to dislocate my knee cap. It worries me quite a bit, but because I’m eating I feel like I have to burn at least some of it off. I’ve been really weak and tired lately, i get sick like at least once a week and it’s awful. I just genuinely feel like shit, I can’t even look in the mirror without crying because I feel so disgusted with myself. I want to tell my family but I’m afraid they’ll think I just want attention because I don’t look sick enough to have an eating disorder. Sorry for posting so much, but thank you for all of the support you gulls have given me, it genuinely helps.