/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>make the weeb pilgrimage to Japan finally
>check out shibuya 109, laforet, all the dream shops
>i'm 6 feet tall
>nothing fits

Anybody live near the Arkansas Oklahoma border? I'm tired of being a lone lolita

>>8383255
R9k plz go

>>8376140
>mfw dreamt that my brother had taken my dream dress without permission and put it on
> Started yelling at him
> Finally got him to take it off and I notice he spilled sennep on it, like 3-4 spots that are clear as day
> Start crying hysterically in the kitchen and press my dress against my face
> Half wake up and tears starts pressing
> notice what had felt like the dress in my dream was actually my duvet pressing against my face
> Sigh of relief but also crying because can't snap out of dream feels completely
> After some minutes get up and check that my dress is ok

Thank god it was a dream

Just cancelled my Queen Lily room at the Maui Sands. Grab it while you can!

>disappointing everyone in my room
>missing that glorious Shonen Knife concert
>no more Aiko and Punpun couple cosplay

Please have fun for me, gulls.

>Still sewing
>I can't even cut a straight fucking line
>fabric is fraying
>It'll probably end up looking like shit
>Even if I finish it tonight it'll probably end up looking like shit.
>tempted to not even wear it tomorrow but I worked so hard on it.

I hate today.

>went to wrong clinic for birth control
>had to wait ~3 hours, missed class
>still can't have sex because of infection
>forgot to bring a pencil for calc exam
>had to steal a stubby one from the library
>realize I forgot my calculator
>get aggressively hit on by huge black dude
>anime club plays jeopardy, worst party game ever
>club friend gets touchy about his weight with me
>awkwardness ensues
>he tries to hug me, he smelled like dirty socks
>bf said he'll meet me after anime club
>doesn't
>tried to play it off as forgetfulness, later admits he was just tired and didn't want to deal with me
>get greasy wendy's fries to choke down sadness
>get creeped on by my stalker on the train
>I still have no idea what his name is
>come home late to tense house
>eat 350cal icecream, feel nothing
>rash on my armpit has increased its mass
>meetup with tabletop friends not happening
>any attempts to make it a hangout for something else is shot down
>bf thinks I'm overbearing when I just wanted to show him things I liked
>have to study for two exams tomorrow
>there will be no sleep tonight

I just want to cry.

>be mixed/black
>not dark enough to get tumblr asspats, but not white enough to get attention for being a qt white girl
>I'm not ugly by any means
>boys wont date me because of my skintone
>boys wont give me the time of day and ignore me for my (white) friends because of this.
>of course had a racist teacher when I was younger who would only give black people bad grades (it was obvious too, why wasn't she fired)
>have trouble finding a bf, nerd guys only want a white or asian girl
>no one really wants to bring me home to meet their parents, but I've had guys approach me who want to "experiment with fucking a black chick"a lot
>each friend group I have the guys all like to make "token black friend" jokes at me
>had a guy in college try to choke me when I said no to his invite for sex
>he called me all sorts of racial slurs while doing so
>talk to authorities about this, and teachers. all of whom tell me I'm "playing the race card"
>wtf there are bruises on my neck
>half asleep, looking at my hand, the color of my skin
>If my skin wasn't dark, people would treat me better, the color of my skin..
>take a bunch pictures of myself and photoshop myself to look white
>think to myself "this girl, everyone would want to be with this cutie. everyone would be nice to her"
>fall asleep next to my computer screen

I've had a heavy load of feels lately.

I wish people would treat me better. The strange thing is that some people think I'm a black supremacist when I complain about how I'm treated.

sorry I deleted and edited this like twice

>be mixed/black
>not dark enough to get tumblr asspats, but not white enough to get attention for being a qt white girl
>I'm not ugly by any means
>boys wont date me because of my skintone
>boys wont give me the time of day and ignore me for my (white) friends because of this.
>of course had a racist teacher when I was younger who would only give black people bad grades (it was obvious too, why wasn't she fired)
>have trouble finding a bf, nerd guys only want a white or asian girl
>no one really wants to bring me home to meet their parents, but I've had guys approach me who want to "experiment with fucking a black chick"a lot
>each friend group I have the guys all like to make "token black friend" jokes at me
>had a guy in college try to choke me when I said no to his invite for sex
>he called me all sorts of racial slurs while doing so
>talk to authorities about this, and teachers. all of whom tell me I'm "playing the race car"
>wtf there are bruises on my neck
>last night, half asleep, looking at my hand, the color of my skin
>If my skin wasn't dark, people would treat me better, the color of my skin..
>take a bunch pictures of myself and photoshop myself to look white
>think to myself "this girl, everyone would want to be with this cutie. everyone would be nice to her"
>fall asleep next to my computer screen

I've had a heavy load of feels lately.

I wish people would treat me better. The strange thing is that some people think I'm a black supremacist when I complain about how I'm treated.

>be mixed/black
>not dark enough to get tumblr asspats, but not white enough to get attention for being a qt white girl
>I'm not ugly by any means
>boys wont date me because of my skintone
>boys wont give me the time of day and ignore me for my (white) friends because of this.
>of course had a racist teacher when I was younger who would only give black people bad grades (it was obvious too, why wasn't she fired)
>have trouble finding a bf, nerd guys only want a white or asian girl
>no one really wants to bring me home to meet their parents, but I've had guys who want to "experiment with fucking a black chick"a lot
>each friend group I have the guys all like to make "token black friend" jokes at me
>had a guy in college try to choke me when I said no to his invite for sex
>he called me all sorts of racial slurs while doing so
>talk to authorities about this, and teachers. all of whom tell me I'm "playing the race car"
>wtf there are bruises on my neck
>half asleep, looking at my hand, the color of my skin
>If my skin wasn't dark, people would treat me better, the color of my skin..
>take a bunch pictures of myself and photoshop myself to look white
>think to myself "this girl, everyone would want to be with this cutie. everyone would be nice to her"
>fall asleep next to my computer screen

I've had a heavy load of feels lately.

I wish people would treat me better. The strange thing is that some people think I'm a black supremacist when I complain about how I'm treated.

>boyfriend tells me he loves waterparks
>boyfriend's friend invites us on a double date to a waterpark
>bonus they 5-10 minutes away from it and invited us for a sleepover as well for convenience
>super excited
>buy cute frilled japanese swimsuit just for the occassion
>It gets here and I show it off to him
>boyfriend tells me he really doesn't feel like going
>crushes me and his friend in the process
>tell him I'm crushed
>he tells me he still "doesn't feel like it"
>waterpark is closing next week
>his friend found someone else to go out with
>they're going out today as I stay home watching him play dota

I-Its not like a waterpark/amusement park is my dream date setting or anything..

>>7784575
i meant opinion, im just so mad at those shoes, they are like the middle finger on feet to me

>went to Boston to visit bf's uncle
>bf was unbearable throughout the whole ride
>five hours of bitching
>I cried once it got to much
>he got the hint
>lovely ride for the last two hours or so

>three days later
>come back to his house
>bf starts complaining about everything again
>his mom asks how it went
>bitches her out about how it was a waste of time, money, etc
>we go to the basement to be alone
>we have bowling planned with friends on Thursday
>tabletop on Saturday
>also work the rest of the week
>I talk about maybe cancelling tabletop + bowling
>he says probably bowling since "of the way you act"
>he's referring to my immature spaghetti rage during skeeball in Boston
>silence
>I felt like Marie when Hank paralyzed his legs
>he gets up and goes to the kitchen
>I mechanically put my shoes on
>I wheel my suitcase to the bus stop
>I can't stand to be near him
>he notices and calls out to me from the door
>he calls me on the phone, texts me
>I ignore him
>eventually I give in and we drove to my house
>we talked a little bit
>once again, the blame was placed on me
>I say nothing, I'm too angry
>I won't say sorry
>I will not agree to everything being my fault ever again just to end our problems

So yeah. Biggest fight we ever had. I'm sure if he reads this, he'll say that I'm so stupid to post this on /cgl/, why can't I just talk to him. Because as always I'll end up saying, "I was just an idiot, I'm sorry" or "I just need to stop being so dumb with my emotions, I'm sorry." And he'll be the good guy. As always.

I won't break up with him, I know you guys are so gung-ho about that. It's just so infuriating sometimes that he doesn't get it.

Excuse the huge post.

>see an old AP dress on lacemarket auctions
>measurements of the dress will fit me despite my height
>fuck yes, so happy
>win dress for $70
>boyfriend uses his paypal to order dress for me (we share money, nbd)
>stay up for two days excited for dress to get here
>says the dress is delivered and signed for online
>dress is not at our house
>turns out, boyfriend's paypal address wasn't changed since he's moved
>got sent to a mexican neighborhood
>postal service goes there to check things out
>apperantly they said they never recieved anything
>package says it was SIGNED FOR
>its been 3 months, still want to go to house
>know its doomed

It still hurts to think about

>>7623106
fml, I've been looking so hard.

>>7556924

And now for an actual important class.

>finished Precalc with a D
>needed a C to take two classes
>next term is fucked
>only choice now is to retake it in Summer II
>it's $2400
>only $1000 in bank
>need to find job to get $1.5k by late July
>tfw job hunting
>tfw keeping failure a secret from boyfriend

>>7550767
i will have nightmares about that face