/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I have a really heavy and persistent feeling that nothing good will ever happen again. I never realized how much I use cons so that there's something I can look forward to. I try to keep cosplaying and working on new projects at home, but it's just not the same. For a while, I felt like I'm going to spend the rest of my time chasing the high of that first convention I went to when I was 13. Just walking around the near-empty halls at 8:00 am in my shitty ebay cosplay, I was over the moon. Nothing will ever live up to that.
I don't mean to seem totally depressing, but I've been thinking it's time to go for a bit now. I have roughly double the amount of meds that's supposed to cause a strong enough adverse reaction, and with that knowledge, it's hard to convince myself otherwise. I was always scared it wouldn't work, so feeling like I'm fairly sure it will this time is comforting.
Or I could just start my homework for tomorrow, I guess.