/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>be me, average grill
>wear lolita every blue moon, do very simple comfortable cosplays just for shits, goes to a few cons a year
>meet qt boy on the internet and start dating
>he's perf in every way, sweet and nerdy and funny and I'm probably in love with him or something
>he mentions his ex and how she was helping him build armor for a cosplay once
>have to look her up later because I'm a nosey sob
>recognize her immediately, literally fuck my life
>local mildly well-known tiddy cosplayer
>she's stupid pretty and has all these elaborate cosplays that she makes herself, sewing and armor and props and everything
>posts a bunch of "WIPs" and personal photos with Very Little Clothing and her stupid unsubtle nerd tattoos
>kind of trashy but far from a bad cosplayer and definitely better and prettier and fitter and more impressive than me in every way
>he barely talks about her but we exchanged ex stories and he had nothing nice to say
>she has a lot of attention and insecurity problems but I'm still over here comparing myself because I just don't match up

I can admit I'm jealous and insecure as all fuck idk. I'm sure he's not comparing the two of us, but I can't help it. She's got a goddamn Patreon account and going to all these cons and I'm here doing fuck all. I can't help but feel like I'm a silver medal and worry that he's gonna realize that, too.