/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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Item: Gas mask

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Haha I kinda suspected that kind of reaction, but since the style is kinda about that stuff I just wanted to ask anyways
The reason I'm on medication is because of severe depression. Some antidepressants are known to make you even more depressed or even make you self harm
I've tried about 4 different meds or so, and each switch takes about 3 months to fully complete since I'm really sensitive to these kinds of medications and need to introduce them very slowly. All the ones I've tried so far have done worse things for me, made me feel nothing etc. Without meds I get super suicidal from time to time, and it gets worse each time. Even if I don't actually kill myself, anyone who's been suicidal knows how much that sucks
When I self harm I feel suicidal too, but not close to as bad. I don't cut to the point where I'm actually in danger either.
At the moment, things are going really good for me, after like 5 years of staying home, I'm being able to study and have a job at the side. So I can't afford switching meds on the slight chance that all the good things meds give me will stay, and all the bad things will go away
I've kinda accepted it as it is.
Sorry for the long off topic ramble, and sorry for sounding stupid and tacky. I just wanted to know what you gulls thought. Thanks for your input! I'll go with bandages instead