/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

> went through a series of abusive & bullying relationships and friendships with cosplay people
> last time this happened I was assaulted sexually by my "friend" & they got away with it by using their relationship with populars to make me look bad.
> recently set up a cospage to try making new friends and put shitty people behind me
> too nervous to do sexy things anymore without supervision from bf or friends
> photogs ignore me for not being sexy
> other cosplayers ignore me for not having enough likes or knowing "cool" people
> everyone treats me like a scumbag for using /cgl/ even though I have nowhere else in the community to vent safely.

I- I don't know what to do guys. Scared I might crack and do something stupid. I'm sorry it's not a funny story.