/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

/cgl/ related:
>got Biscuits & Chocolates sleeveless OP
>can't wear it now due to shite weather
>ordered new sunscreen in the mail, it's amazing but spent it all in a flash and now I have to order it again

not very /cgl/ related:
>always sound like a brain-dead eejit
>born in predominantly English-speaking country
>mother tongue is not English, but started learning English at around 5 years of age and became fluent around 12-13 thanks to lessons in school (we had a separate English teacher, our lessons were conducted in my mother tongue)
>don't sound very ESL anymore, have a slight accent but it's unnoticeable unless you really pay attention to it
>passed English tests with flying colours and have flawless understanding of the language
>but I feel that I sound like a Polish construction worker, vocabulary level around the same as that of a 14yo and use very basic words
>all my friends are so eloquent, even non-Anglo students in my uni/college are more well-spoken
>being bilingual isn't of any use since the language was pretty much killed off and sometimes you have to use English for certain topics anyway
>literally only thing it's good for are elaborate curse words
>everything in uni revolves around using business slang and sometimes I have to try really hard to understand what the text/teacher is saying
>often I just unwillingly switch off and my eyes glaze over while I stare at the text without registering a single word
>I'm scared someone will call my bluff when I use a word I don't understand or talk about a topic I don't know anything about
>mfw we're strongly encouraged to take up a foreign language
>mfw I'm fucked

>>7894430
>mfw you're right
holy shit he is the firstborn
and he even has legit autism
but they bought him an apartment while they are asking me to pay rent for living in one of the apartments they own (that's right, several)
they pay for his food and medical bills while I have to save up to see a doctor and grovel and apologise if I even DARE to ask them to borrow money for a dentist
And I'm 21 while he's 25