/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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goddamnit it just makes me feel slimy and sad every time

>performance about to start
>hear a pair of pesky memer underages in the crowd say something about "It's nico nii"
>feel angry at kind of guys who had been showing up at cons lately
>That also made me a bit insecure about what I wanted the girl to say since part of it involved saying "nico" and was afraid of bothering her with a joke I saw as unfunny
>end of performance
>have a little bit of a tough time finding her later since she is so very tiny
>meanwhile I rehearse what I'm going to say, how to introduce my request, and what words I wanted her to say
>she with some other of the raibus
>Try say hi and if she'd like to
>it ends up being a quiet hi and not sure what to say next
>repeat
>Umi tells her it seems I want a photo with her
>spaghetti begins manifesting in my pockets, but not coming out
>think they think I'm loser
>she asks me if I want a photo
>I ask her for some video for some boy when there were some more adequate words I couldn't get my tounge on
>she seems to be kinda shy, nervously saying she's okay with a photo but not a video
>the way she said "not a video" also made me nervous, since she said it nervously too and not in a "fuck off" way I was afraid (and kinda prepared) to face
>attempt no negotiate are null as we are both nervous
>couldn't think of anything to say to negotiate (not even "it's just a little words"
>now I can't decide
>photo of her or with her
>which one would be more appropiate for this banter feud I have with my roomate
>I pretty much want to fix this muddy mess
>The joke would have worked at it's best if I could have gotten her to speak in camera
>and I wanted to execute it at its best because if not, it was nothing
>but I knew I couldn't
>a sad bitterness flows through my veins, resignation
>fuck me most of what I spoke was kinda stuttered
>fucking hate kinda stuttering