/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I have no idea how I'm feeling right now.

I've been dealing with my untreated (professionally diagnosed) mental illness for four years now. Right now I can't seek out help. (It wouldn't cost me a penny with my insurance, but my parents think there's nothing wrong and are really against it. I'm eighteen and live at home with them. I'll be starting college next fall.) And I don't know what to do. I'm tired of living like this, and I don't want to live anymore.

But today, I started my first Japanese class, and my teacher was so excited because he rarely gets to teach Japanese in school. He spoke the entire time in Japanese, and it was so challenging, but I really enjoyed it. For the 72 minutes that we were together, I didn't think about anything else but Japanese and trying to understand my teacher. The one part of me that wants to live wants to live because I really want to learn this language. But staying alive for Japanese? That's so fucking stupid.

Sorry for the vent. I don't know what I should do lol.

>>6986185

>>6585956
So much loss. All in my pants.

>>6367416
I am not religious but I also feel uncomfortable when I see photos of people wearing crosses (whether rightside up or upside down) or rosaries, things like that
I feel like someone is going to make a bookbag and use the holy bible as the base and that will really make me uncomfortable.

lol, I love this guy, he cosplays as Jesus at Anime Iowa every year