/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I've been cosplaying for almost four years and I feel like I should be better than where I am right now. My construction, posing, propmaking, wigstyling, and makeup skills all leave something to be desired and I end up hating how I look in every photo I see of myself in cosplay. It isn't a body image thing, I'm fine with how I look whenever I see myself in the mirror, it's just that I get so frustrated with how my cosplay turned out or how stiff/unnatural my pose and expression is.

I think a lot of it ties to my severe (diagnosed but untreated) ADHD. When starting a new costume, I will initially hyper focus on a few minor details, and my poor time management skills usually results in me rushing to finish my outfit the night before or even worse the morning of the con. I know that if I have to rush a cosplay the night before, I should just not finish it and wear another outfit, but my stuff often seems "good enough" to wear to the con, even if there's an obvious flaw or missing detail. Once the con is over, I get my pictures back, hate how I look in them, but start the process all over again with a new cosplay. I have fun cosplaying and attending conventions, but I don't know why I keep putting myself through this stress and keep producing mediocre results. I don't know if I should slow down in order to break cycle I set for myself. I keep telling myself that "practice makes perfect" and if I keep pushing myself, eventually I'll be happy with something I make. I feel like I have decent enough skills when it comes to sewing/propmaking/wigstyling, I just keep shooting myself in the foot because of my failure to pay attention to detail and terrible procrastination habits. I also don't know if I'm being too hard on myself and my stuff is fine or if my criticism is 100% justified.
Sorry for the blog post, I'm just frustrated with myself and I want to get better.

aghhh i put off buying shoes300 for too long.

I look at all this inspo and while it's all cute as fuck, I cringe at the amount of dust they'll accumulate between all cute decoration. And ohh how I hate cleaning.

>ideal room would be super minimalist, monochrome colors, only necessities, no decoration, ultra fashion
>I'd have to toss cosplaying and other otaku hobbies and grow the fuck up