/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

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>con goes amazingly, have a great time, get with s/o, havent dated or liked anybody like this before

>everything is changing and looking up. Have all these friends now who are great, fewer than I used to but amazing people. Only like 2 local to me.

>working again, two jobs actually, night and day. never sleep. Also taking classes. Only see friends on the weekends really. Still catching up financially.

>Even though theres all this happiness in my life I never had before, anxiety and panic is becoming severe, constantly in a state of depersonalization

>Can't focus on anything, scared, having 20+ anxiety attacks a day, one of my jobs is shit, so behind on school, not eating, either sleeping 14+ hours or not at all, nothing excites me anymore, losing weight, never get to see my friends, s/o lives 2 1/2 hours away

>trying slowly to get back into the con scene, and my hobbies. just got a new gym membership, looking for other jobs to replace shitty one, got a car, learning to drive, started going to therapy, taking psych meds that help (barely) with anxiety

>I'll figure this shit out eventually, right? I'll meet some more friends into my hobby, I'll get excited about things and stuff again?

>tfw you don't know tfw

>tfw about to work 10pm to 6am and look around and think you'll end up like the people around you