/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>am gay
>end up going to a university in the deep south
>meet cute art major in college
>wears mori, gardens, great art, generally fun to be around
>doki doki
>one day, she posts on facebook about being a lesbian, but deletes it out of fear
>develop a crush on her, but due to an ED, think I'm too fat and worthless to ask her out
>one night at a party, we talk about being gay in the south and how we wish we could just be "normal" or find men we could tolerate enough (average southern lesbian self loathing)
>drop out of college and lose contact with her
>actually become fat and worthless
>get my shit together and go back to university, plus start wearing lolita and generally become more and more confident
>daydream about mori x lolita dates, or at least having a friend who is into jfash again
>when I get back, discover she's now calling herself non-binary and is dating a femboy

I get that with this social climate, it's easier to not call yourself a lesbian... Lesbians are evil transphobic terfs in the public eye and it's easier to try to ignore your attraction (cause I myself dated a guy and tried to "fix" myself), but this just makes me so fucking sad. I hate this feeling, gulls. I was really excited about going back and reconnecting, but now I feel kind of stupid.

>>10022509
>tfw spent a day out with lolita best friend
>out wearing full coords, shopping, eating good food, hugging, generally having a good time
>tfw lolita bff jokes about us being the cutest lesbians
>tfw lolita bff is married so clearly joking
>tfw your heart can't take a fucking joke
>tfw you're extremely gay for your best friend
End me

>>9953301
>>9953304
>tfw also want a lolita gf
>parents would probably disown me if I came out as bi/lesbian

>tfw you fit many brand sizing comfortably but have strange fit issues with long sleeved outerwear
I don't get it, aren't they supposed to be a bit larger to accommodate layers? In reality the ones I have are tiny and don't fit me well at all, even just on top of a JSK without a blouse. Maybe they shrunk in the wash and the previous owners didn't say anything about it, or maybe I'm secretly fat and don't realize it, I don't know.

>>9891829
Didn't Misako cry because she didn't win the competition?

>>9720088
I hope whoever dates him next makes him happy.

>>9219775
I think the JSK's too plain.

I'm also bored enough that this is vaguely entertaining and it's nice to live vicariously through this

What is your cat's name and what does it look like?

What is it with all the feels threads getting deleted?

cgl-related:
>wake up today
>"Oh, what a nice day! And I haven't worn Lolita for so long! Let's dress up!"
>try on several dresses
>NONE of them fit anymore
>mfw

Jesus fucking Christ, no way I can live in denial about my weight gain anymore. I need to lose 10-20 pounds.
What can I do to motivate myself cgl? All my friends are pretty and thin, none of them can relate to me or help me (almost none of them exercise or eat an overly healthy diet). I-i just want to fit my burando again.

> tfw every month is unexpected emergency month and I have no spare cash for lolita
> tfw dropped my phone in water today and spent the whole day crying and feeling terrible
> tfw found out the latest dress I bought has a stain and I haven't even worn it out yet b/c no matching shoes
> tfw worrying about money so much, ton of bills due this month, lots of stress at work, take anti-anxiety pills again
> tfw almost had a panic attack today, after 2 years without any, great
> tfw bf is angry because he can't console me and I just want to disappear
> tfw not as skinny as I once was, feel terrible despite comm telling me I look slim/great/was too skinny before
> tfw stupid ugly bitch forever

Couldn't find one in the catalog. Time to feel fellow seagulls.

>>8008858
>mfw this is my life

>tfw black and could only be Tiana

I am 5'6 and 140 pounds
My skin is full of acne scars and disgusting hair because my hormones are all fucked up
My whole body is covered in disgusting dark black hair. I have to shave my entire body from feet to bellybutton
I had an operation on my foot so now I cannot wear heels for months

I probably failed all my exams (or got really bad grades) because I was too lazy to study
I also haven't started on my papers and will probably need to redo the classes
I like my major but I just cannot deal with UniI. I never had to study in school so I never learned to study or work and now I am royally fucked

I haven't had a relationship for over a year, and haven't had sex since then
I haven't met anyone I am interested in
I never go out and meet new people, I am not attractive, popular, sexy, funny or an open person so I doubt this will change anytime soon.

I spend too much money on Lolita
I spend too much money on Lolita items that do not fit me
I spend too much money on Lolita items I don't wear
I spend too much money on Lolita main pieces and then I have nothing to go with it so they just sit in my closet because I don't have a coord
I buy Lolita to feel better about myself
Whenever something bad happens, I buy clothes, and sometimes I regret it immerdiatley. I am developing a very unhealthy habit


I should be a happy person. I have a loving family, no money issues (aside from spending too much money, but I am not in debt), I study what I wanted to study at the Uni I wanted to go, I am healthy, young. Still I managed to somehow fuck it up despite all the opportunities and advantages I have. And then I feel sad and sorry for myself and than I am angry because I feel sorry for myself for no reason.

>>7653439