/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

Gulls I need your help.

I'm at one of the best fashion school in my country, which I wanted to do since I was 10 yo or even less. I's been like a month since I started class but everything is crumbling to me, it was such a dream since I had chaotic middle and high school years and only finished highschool because I was good at one or two subject and had buttload of hours cut and had someone helping me take notes. I have asperger and have shit hands so choosing a job I like and I'm able to do is a necessity. But each fucking hour of class is excruciating, it take me hours to do stuff I know how to do and students which never did any of that before do it with no problem. Some teachers can't believe how left behind am I at the end of each classes. I just go back home, eat and crash in my bed. It's highschool ounce again but now I'm juste cornered by the fact I can't keep up with the thing I always wanted to do and probably will not do the job I desired to do since I was little. I keep count down of each day I have before the next school break. I cry almost everyday in class and feel like a 40 yo even thought I'm not even 20.
Does any female with asperger even achieved to do a normal cool job?
I feel like I come to realize can only live of NEET bucks or some shitty at home job while staying at my parent place. Sorry for shit english

>sell a shit ton of things
>write in description that I only seek serious buyers
>around 30 people ""interested"" in buying on the first day
>literally only 3 end up actually buying something, 4 apologized and refused and all the others are ghosting me
I wish I could report them all. Who raised you to be such cunts?

Ita:
>ugh lolita is so expensive, saving up for brand is literally impossible, I don’t understand how you can afford Japanese brand when I can only afford to buy from mylolitadress and AliExpress you must all be rich omg it’s so unfair!
Same ita, one week later:
>um stop telling me about secondhand sites and Taobao? I actually prefer paying the 6x reseller markup bcus it’s easier?? like why is everyone telling me how to spend my money I thought lolitas were supposed to be lovlies!
Same ita, two weeks later:
>I’m going to flake on this meetup last minute because I’m poor :(

my favorite lolita youtuber is dead ...