/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm so sad about feeling like the ugly duckling all the time. When i see other pretty girls i just feel like the ugly little duckling in the middle of swans, a peasant surrounded by princesses. And i'm terribly unphotogenic. Thus looking hideous in picture and hiding my face half of the time.
People always tell me i'm "so cute"/beautiful/adorable/.. but seriously i think they do that out of pity, i look like the fusion of a young woman and a child in an uncute/awkward/disgracious way.
I even had one girl telling me i had "a special kind of beauty" which definitely means "you're ugly but i don't wanna hurt your feelings". once in a group picture a girl asked who was "the gorgeous girl at the far right" and it was me, she was probably mocking me like girls used to do in high school or when boys would ask me out jokingly. It hurts gulls. Or maybe i'm reading too much into this.

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We just broke up a few hours ago i'm a bit shaken and i cried because it's been one year. He admitted he actually wanted to. And that he just saw all this thing as a cheap costumey thing. I showed respect for his hobby and even did some research so we could discuss, i just wanted to be a good girlfriend and seriously i wasnt even mad at him because i thought "well, he tried at least" but then i just learn he think my hobby is some kind of kink or joke costume. He can go fuck himself.
I threw him out of my appartment. Gave him the car model and told him to spend his fucking holidays alone and go fuck a cheap whore as cheap as that dress...Fuck, i just wanted to have a nice christmas day for once but looks like i'll be alone again..Even if i don't have presents i don't care, i just wanted someone who cares about me and have a nice moment with them...Looks like it's not going to happen...Welp.