/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

I'm a reforming salty bitch. I'm really really working on it.
Around 2+ years ago, I think I decided that I disliked another girl in my community because she was so popular and beloved and I felt like we had a similar skill level yet largely passed over. So for the next few years, I would bitch about her to whomever would listen. I don't know if she ever knew I was smack talking her but it's probable.
Sometime within the last 3 months, there was a switch in my mind. I decided that I didn't want what she had and that her actions no longer bothered me.
I don't know if I should outright apologize (because it would be weird if she didn't know) but otherwise, I wonder if she thinks I'm being fake because I've been interacting with her so much more to figure out if I should apologize or not. Help me gulls!