/cgl/ - Cosplay & EGL

>get rid of toxic male in my life that only wanted me as a sex object with none of my feelings or an actual relationship
>he had kept flirting around with the idea of me being his girlfriend and for a while I essentially was and that's why I stayed so long
>mom gets diagnosed with stage 4 cancer
>grandma gets diagnosed with stage 2 cancer
>really missing toxic male because it'd be nice to have someone to talk to that would feign interest even if it was only for nudes
>trying to convince myself I don't need anyone and I'm fine
>dad tests positive for COVID-19 and I can't work because I work at a restaurant
Life is literally always giving me such a big FU and I want to be positive for everybody but it's so hard and I don't know how to keep my head up right now
I've been debating trying to add him back because I'm kinda pathetic and just need somebody to be able to cry to